Hail the Rulers!

Why does the heart push me hard?
Leave me with no options…
Where from surfaces the hidden Bard?
Romanticize the struggle…
Why do I go on to risk it all?
Brave a possible fall…
Do I have it in me?
The courage to let life crawl…
Would I look back with regret?
Broken with despair…
Isn’t it dangerous to day dream?
Thoughts run wild…
Aren’t they right in their reserve?
Impossibilities don’t escape them…
Did I not yearn for this life?
Free to live and free to die…
Did I ever ask for a choice?
I had every right…
Why do I seek a lost cause?
The glory has gone by…
Will it ever come to pass?
That elusive chance to stand tall…
What drives me to take my chance?
That promise of infallibility…
Why does the idea at all, enthrall?
The certainty of an empty all…
Am I not a liar?
Though, I have been honest…
I have all the answers…
Yet, aren’t they more than that?
I have let up…
Haven’t they seen my cards?
I am an optimist…
Isn’t that only right?
It isn’t a vicious world…
Wouldn’t it let me run my race?
The all too idealistic chase…
Why do I fancy the trashy dash?
The deserving always win their honor…
What then, is the need for the vain fight?
Solitude, I forever sought…
Why then, tears on being left out?
All set to wage a lonely battle…
Am I calling quits before its begun?
This war picture is a conjuration…
Isn’t it the product of a fertile imagination?
I play up things…
Doesn’t that make it easy to run riot?
There was something that egged me on…
Wasn’t it what I’ve lived by?
The spirit reigned…
Did I surrender to ruin?
It’s going in circles…
And didn’t I know it would.
I offer no defense. Resignation it is. Hail the Rulers!